Mother’s Day 2015- 32 weeks 3 days
This Mother’s Day was so special for me. This was the first and only time that I will have both of my sweet boys physically with me to celebrate. David, Drew, and John made the weekend so special for me…honestly, I just felt over-whelmed by it all! Then, my family and friends made me feel so special too…their cards, messages, and emails were so sweet and kind! It was really neat to be remembered by so many people…I am beyond blessed!
Even though it was a wonderful weekend, it was also a very emotional weekend. When it hit me that this would be the only Mother’s Day where both of my boys would be alive, I just kind of lost it. It was such a hard, yet sweet realization…I want to cherish every moment I have with both of the boys…from kicks and hiccups from John, to the cuddles, kisses, and big hugs from Drew. One of the sweetest things about this weekend was how when Drew and David gave me my Mother’s Day presents and cards, I told Drew that he and Daddy had made my Mother’s Day the most special ever- he corrected me and said “no Mommy…Daddy, Drew, and JOHN made your day special!”
Drew talks about John a good bit and he is already being such a good big brother by including him in things like Mother’s Day. He talks about how he wants to share his toys with John and how he is going to teach him how to play with his toys. He also sings “You are My Sunshine” to him every night while putting his hand on my belly. Drew is really getting a kick out of feeling John move and how he can feel his head right under my ribs! He comes up and gives my belly a hug and tells me he is “hugging baby John” or giving him a kiss…it just melts my heart! It makes me so happy yet so profoundly sad at the same time. I so wish I could watch them grow up together and go through all of the things that brothers go through together…but The Lord has other plans for our boys. I am comforted by that, but it doesn’t always make it easier.
Physically, I am doing well…I feel like an “oompa loompa” and I get tired a little more easily, but overall I feel good. Our appointments have been good and John is really doing well inside of me. He got his first “perfect” test score (LOL!)….an 8/8 on the “Biophysical Profile” that they perform at the Perinatologist. We were so pleased to know that he is doing well and that his growth is only a couple of weeks behind where it should be at this point. As of last week, he was weighing in at 3 lbs 3 ounces! We are hoping he will be closer to 5 lbs when he is born, but we aren’t sure if that will happen. The nurse practitioner told me to make sure I’m eating and drinking enough (one would think so!). My OB told me to sit in a pool a couple of hours a day if I could to help with my decreased amniotic fluid (ummm…OK! LOL!). Never thought I would be given the green light to eat more and just hang out in the pool! I’ll try my best ;-)
A lot has happened since I wrote the last update. We now have John’s birthday- Thursday June 4th, 2015. I will have a C-Section to deliver him. We are delivering him early so that we have a better chance of meeting him alive and spending as much time as possible with him. We are really looking forward to meeting John and holding him in our arms in less than 4 weeks, but we are also apprehensive because we know what his prognosis is. We don’t know exactly what our time at the hospital will look like, but we know that The Lord is in control of that time and He will make it so peaceful and special…we believe that and trust that!
We have also been working on plans for John’s memorial service. I tell you what, that is something I NEVER thought I would have to do for one of my children. We are so blessed by the pastors and staff at Church of the Apostles; not only are they helping us plan his memorial, they are praying for us CONSTANTLY! We know that if we need any kind of support, we can call up or email the pastors or staff at our church and they will be there for us…what an amazing blessing!
We are so supported, loved, and prayed over by so many…and we feel the peace that comes from that. Thank you from the bottom of our hearts…words cannot express how grateful we are.
"And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus" -Philippians 4:7